"I'm a bad mom"

So...some of my thoughts are from what other Moms think is wrong in being a parent of a newborn  and others are things I know I shouldn't do but I do them anyway because I LOVE MY BABIES!!!  I'm a "bad" mom because:

~I nurse her only at night and she is supplemented with formula on and off during the day.


~I bring her into bed with me after the 2nd time she wakes up at night.


~She doesn't sleep through the night anymore and that's okay with me.


~I won't let her cry it out (at least for now!) because I believe in nurturing her and responding to her needs.


~I started her on solids but she doesn't seem to like them so I don't push it.


~If I'm at home with her, I hold her all the time.


~I pick her up the second she cries.


~She's in daycare so I can work, can't afford to stay home.


~I let her "use me" as a pacifier at times during the night.

~She still sleeps in her sleep positioner because I fear she will roll over on her tummy at night and even with this...I still wake up to see if she's breathing.


~Her only scheduled part of the day is bedtime.  So she doesn't have scheduled naps and I feed her when she's hungry when we're together.


~I have trust issues about who watches her.

~I let my dogs "kiss" her in the face.


~I don't ever really do much for myself (shopping, pedicures, time alone with friends) because I want to be with her all the time.

~I let my boys play video games without being timed. 

~I let my boys who are 12 and 8 go bike riding by themselves.

~I let my boys (during the summer) play their Ipod and ps2 in bed and at times they're up at midnight still playing.

~I allowed my 12 year old to have a cell phone and to text.  However, he does have a cell curfew of 9:30 pm.

~I let my 12 year old have a Facebook (but with my supervision)

I think that's it for now but I'm sure I could find other reasons why I'm such a "bad" mom. (Just a note- this isn't against anyone or anything that was said to me.  Mainly it's geared towards things like what others think what's right and what's wrong and what the general public says.)  Yes, I know I need to give myself a break but I'm a Mom and my baby/children always come first.

If anyone wants to comment or tell their "bad mom notes" feel free, lol!!!

4 months old today!

Happy 4 months to our Punky, we love you!!!!

I will have a four month old as of tomorrow!

Well...just 4 months ago today I was anticipating the birth of our daughter.  I had mixed emotions.  I was so excited but I was so scared...I barely slept that night.  I knew that my life the next day would consist of being the Mommy of now 2 boys and a little girl!!!  I had everything ready and the car packed to head out the next morning at 5:00 am.  By 7:30 that morning that we got to the hospital, I was ready to be wheeled into the OR.  I was so scared as I had never had a planned c-section before and had always been knocked out during surgery so I didn't know what it was like to be awake during.  I layed there in fear of what might happen that could go wrong.  Then a few minutes later, I heard the best sound in the world...her cry.  I heard the doctors/nurses saying, "you did good", "she's a pretty little girl"...at that moment, all my fears were gone, it was nothing but the best feeling in the world.  Now today, she's a healthy, happy baby, who is smiling and cooing and now starting to laugh...God has certainly blessed me in so many ways possible and I thank him.

Well, I was much better today but Emily's been very fussy! I think it's her gums bothering her. :(
She's not wanted to sleep or be put down. So...we went shopping a little, I knew the car ride would help her a bit, and it did...well, lol, I was about to take a pic of her still asleep in her carseat but she's awake so, gotta run! Have a great Monday everyone!

Sick! :(

Well my Saturday didn't turn out like I had wanted. I woke up at 4 am with a virus, vomiting, etc...then mid morning my eyes started burning and turning red. By this afternoon, my face and eyes were itching as if I were having an allergic reaction. Yeah, not been fun. I couldn't spend much time with my baby girl...I had to give little kisses only on the back of her head. I've just been so down today. I'm hoping for a better day tomorrow.

Last night, we went and bought Emily a bouncer entertainment type toy. Before choosing we went to two different stores and we tried them out first by putting her in the different ones available...she loved it..she smiled/laughed everytime we got her out to put her in another one, she thought it was fun, I guess? Anyway, the one we chose is great. It's got toys on the top of it, overhead and the seat spins around and she can bounce in it. Although, right now she can't really touch the floor but she still enjoys sitting in it for now and listening to the sounds and music and watching the lights. Here's some pics:

Teething... :(

 

See her shirt?  It's soaked!  My poor baby!

Can't ever win...

As you know, my last post was on my bad eating habits and trying to lose weight.  Well, I get home and the hubby says, "I'm ordering pizza!"  lol...so, I got a salad from Hungry Howies too so, I guess I'm trying to do good?  :)

Weight gain and feelin blah...

So...since Emily, I've lost 41 lbs...however since a few weeks ago, I've gained about 5 lbs back!  :(  I've got to get control but it seems when I gave birth to our daughter, I gave birth and lost my self discipline for bad eating habits as well!  It's so depressing!  I LOVE my job but it also has to do with the fact that I sit at my desk all day everyday too.  With this said, I'm just feeling a little "blah" today.  So tired too and I guess that doesn't help.  I am a member of  the What To Expect website's March 2010 babies forum and we do this thread on "30 day shred" and I just can't participate, because I've not done anything to shred anything.  I think it would help me if I got back to doing excersizes but at the same time, I don't get home til 6, Em has to be fed around 6:15-6:30, then it's bathtime for she and I (she takes a bath with me) then we get out, have a little family time with her and by then it's close to 8 so she's gotta be fed again and then put to bed by 9...by the time she goes to bed, I'm truly exhausted, so yeah, no time for excersize.  *sigh*  What to do?

Hmmm...I'm sleepy.

Well not sure what happened with my Pretty yesterday but she fought sleep til about 9:15 last night and so then I didn't get in bed til 10:15 and then she got up at 4 am to eat, and then didn't go back to bed til 5.  One hour later, we were both up again and the fussing began.  I think she's having some tummy troubles on top of teething so I wasn't able to start getting ready until around 7:25 and I have to leave my house no later than 7:55 am to get her to daycare and me at work by 8:30. 

Needless to say, I'm extremely tired.  I'm sooooo ready for the weekend.  Here's to hoping she'll feel better thru out the day and won't be fussy this evening, like I say, hopefully.

Em rolled over!!!!

So....my precious little Punky rolled over this morning from tummy to back at 16 wks and 2 days!!  It was so exciting!  I was right there to watch the whole thing!  Even captured the sequence of pics!  So was Sky-he was rooting her on, as if she were understanding what he meant, lol.  I can't believe how fast she is growing.  Another first to share as well-we started her on infant cereal just this week and she loves it...she opens her mouth when the spoon gets near and almost sucks it off!  It's so funny to hear her do her "mmm, mmm, mmm" noises while she eats...it's so rewarding..let's me know she's thinking, "this is good Mommy".

What's new?

So...it's been almost, 4 months since our little Princess came into our lives and boy has it been wild! She is my 3rd but first little girl (and last) and I've had so much fun with her! She is a blessing to us both and the kids really help spoil her too...along with baby fun, we've moved to a new house on the other side of town, and so far, we absolutely love it and the neighborhood! The boys are in hog heaven with all the new neighborhood kids they've met.



Emily will be 4 months old on July 22nd and she is growing and changing every second...just this past weekend she has learned that she does have her on voice and she will be heard! It started at 5 am on Saturday morning when she decided she had, had enough sleep, lol. We got up and went into the living room to watch the early morning cartoons and she was just a "talkin" She was so loud, I said, "you're a loud mouth of the South" and I guess she thought that was her que to get louder and that she did as she smiled so sweetly! This past weekend she also started teething. :( Poor lil' Punky! I had to go out and get some baby orajel and it helped but she let me know quickly that she didn't like it.


Our older boys are enjoying their summer with family and friends and Casey is enjoying hers with her Mom and friends...our two little boys are at the beach as I post right now...they're on their second week with their Mom and family. They were so excited to go, the Sunday that they left we had, had them that weekend and when they woke up...they immediately got dressed and were ready to go to church so they could hurry and leave for the beach afterwards! It was so cute. I've been busy working and doing baby time-lol, lovin every minute though. My husband has also been working hard and just got himself a new SUV! About a month back he had litterally gotten side swiped by a semi, no one was harmed but the damages were way more than what he owed on his Mustang, so...he took the check and paid off his car and said, "well it's time I get a four door!" :) I said, "awesome" He had been wanting a four door but also an automatic so that I could drive his if needbe too...his Mustang was a 5 speed and I have NEVER been able to learn to drive a 5 speed...I guess I'm not multi-coordinated enough. :( so...he got a 2006 Honda Pilot! We love it...I've driven it more than he has and it's awesome. It seats 8 people and even has a DVD entertainment system with wireless headphones...I said, "wow, babe, you're movin on up in the world!" I've got a DVD in my van and he's always said he wanted one in the next vehicle he got so...he got one!


Anyhow, life is good, God is our blessing and it just can't get much better...there is so much more to post but just don't have the time right now so...until next time. Hope everyone is having a wonderful summer!

Who are we?

So I had actually started this blogger after we got married and then life got busy and well, I just plum forgot about it so here goes...we are Ronnie and Erica Reagan. We were both born and raised in Thomasville, Georgia. We officially blended our families and got married on Saturday, April 4, 2009...life then as we knew it, had only gotten better! :) We have 6 kids between us: Casey is our oldest daughter (husband's previous marriage) and she is 14 yrs old, Harrison is our oldest son, 12 yrs old (mine from my previous marriage) then there's Skyler, 8 yrs old (my previous marriage) and Caden & Connor, 5 and 3.5 (husband's previous marriage) and LAST...our baby girl Emily Renee born to us on March 22, 2010! This is us...all of us, the Reagan household...oh, did I forget to mention our doggy daughters? Yep, Beagle sisters, Molly and Daisy whom we adopted at just 9 wks old...they are now 1.5 yrs old...they'll be 2 on Oct. 13th! Whew, you can all catch your breath now...it's crazy at our house, but that's normal to us and we wouldn't have it any other way!